I come from a wonderful family with loving parents and a wonderful brother. I always did well in school, and after university, I was able to quickly find a decent job.
Although there were no major dramatic events or turning points in my life, that didn’t stop bulimia from taking over 5 years of my life.
Diet after diet, I was not able to achieve the desired shape and I was not happy. I don’t remember exactly how or when innocent diets turned into an eating disorder, but I do remember the feeling. The feeling that I am not enough. The feeling that happiness will come to me only when I get rid of the extra few kilograms and that my life will only then begin.
I had fallen into an endless cycle of strict diets, overeating, and purging.
I was so obsessed with my look and the food and I didn’t know how to enjoy life anymore.
Bulimia affected my relationships with friends, and family, my self-esteem, and most of all my health.
But back then I didn’t realize the seriousness of the problem and I had no motivation to heal. Plus, an eating disorder was the perfect excuse to not achieve any of my life goals.
But then I thought I would die. I was laying on the floor after another binge eating episode and I was barely breathing. I thought my stomach had burst. Hot and cold waves swept over me, and I felt I had gone too far this time. I was scared, but I didn’t dare call an ambulance.
I was ashamed. I was not able to tell anybody about my eating disorder.
I already had several health problems due to bulimia, but at that moment, I realized how much I had messed up. And there on the floor, scared to death, I promised to myself that if I survive, I would do my best to heal.
I’ve started searching for ways to deal with the problem.
I read a lot of books and tried different strategies.
It was difficult because the binge eating episodes did not vanish, but I did not give up.
And after about a year of fight, I succeeded.
Things didn’t happen overnight, I didn’t just wake up as a new person.
It took me months to fight, to stand up to myself and my fears, but it was worth it.
I am healthy and alive now. I eat well, my weight normalizes, and I work out for pleasure, but more importantly, I enjoy my life.
I believe that no one is safe and an eating disorder can happen to anyone.
But I also believe that everyone is able to heal and live the life of their dreams.
With the right guidance and support, it’s even easier.
That’s why I’ve started to help people by sharing my story and recovery path and the techniques and exercises that helped me.
In May 2022, I graduated with a master’s degree in Psychology.
Today I can proudly say that I have helped a lot of girls find balance.
Every victory is important because it makes us stronger in the fight against eating disorders.
Start your inner change and fall in love with your body.